So I have a long story to tell about how I almost probably could have died but luckily didn’t and should be getting better. On Saturday after a busy Friday night I started getting pain in my crotch that I assumed was an STI. And then it got worse! By Sunday I felt like I had the flu, but only parts of the flu. Like the parts that didn’t involve the respiratory system at all. I had chills and aches and so much fatigue. And I was like wait do I have an STI AND the flu? Or can an STI feel like the flu? Which apparently some can. Peeing felt like peeing razor blades, it was so fucking painful.
Monday I made an appointment to get tested for STI’s and my doctor was able to see me Tuesday morning. She gave me a bunch of tests and also took pity on me because I was so clearly miserable and gave me what the regular treatment would be for gonorrhea/chlamydia, a shot in the butt and four big white pills. And it did improve things, but only so much. So I was still feeling really sick. At the same time this week I started teaching so I did two classes and office hours and an interview and just felt so awful. Also the weather was shitty early in the week and one day I was just so cold and feeling so miserable.
Wednesday I did a tour with my department chair for the other teaching job I start next week and he was really nice but damn I was still sick, came home and slept from 6:45pm to 9:30am Thursday morning. My doctor said she would have my results Thursday but she didn’t call back until Friday.
By Friday I had two nights in a row of waking up completely drenched in sweat. And then I had obviously also been googling all the STI’s and seeing which caused what symptoms and night sweats was one of the symptoms of HIV and I was like no, the PrEP didn’t help! I was convinced this morning that I was going to get a call from my doctor that I have HIV.
BUT NO. She did finally call while I was in my QTRL meeting this morning and told me I tested negative for STIs including HIV. But she sent my urine culture to get tested and hadn’t heard back yet. OH YES this was the most disturbing part is when I gave my urine sample there was VERY CLEARLY blood in it. OH NO. So she thought it probably was a UTI not an STI and wanted to give me an antibiotic before the weekend. So she prescribed one, but then later today she got the urine test results back and prescribed the right antibiotic for the bacteria I have. So I have finally started taking the right antibiotic and hopefully things improve from here.
But really honestly at one point I swore there were a bunch of spirits around me and I was like oh no are they taking me to the other side already? They were just a lot of wisps about. My entire body was sick, I have never felt so sick, I never want to feel so sick again. I’m lucky I didn’t go septic I guess or I probably would be dead. Oh man. So no, not an STI, a UTI. That I got from having sex. My friend who gets UTIs a lot told me some things to prevent them that I will remember for next time. I’m taking a sex break for now anyway because I just feel so miserable.
This weekend I have to beef up a powerpoint, make a new powerpoint, and that’s about it. I got my Macbook back from the Apple store. They did delete the whole thing so it’s good I backed it up. I am not putting all my info back on it though because the hard drive is not big enough. I’m actually curious if they fixed it or just gave me a new computer. I wouldn’t be surprised, like why do they have to delete it at all? It was just the screen being broken.
ANYWAY. I am doing poorly BUT surviving and still doing what I promised I would do. And I am working again so although I am still poor this month, by the end of the month I will be getting paid for my jobs and should have a decent income again. For a while anyway.
I really did want to call in sick, but I didn’t feel right about missing the first class. I was so sick this week though omg if you saw me and I looked like I was on deaths door it’s because I was but still committed.