I finished my semester. Did a bunch of grading today. I just have one assignment left to grade and then any late submissions. So I am on top of it all and relieved. My film is almost done with the sound, I got a copy of it today that I still need to watch before bed. But if all sounds good then basically POOR is done! So that is very exciting, I’m hoping this week I can take it to my distributor. I submitted it a few places but need to do some more.

What else is going on? Keyboard class was cool, I am learning basic technique and how to tell where the notes are on the keyboard. So that’s cool. In singing classes I am working on Your Song by Elton John, but I am also trying to learn Life on Mars by Bowie which is also super fun to sing. My voice fits with Your Song really well though. Of the two I am going to perform one at my recital so I need to decide which one. In guitar I am learning I Love Rock and Roll which has been super fun, also working on Call Me by Blondie. Which is also fun but like, A TON of power chords. Like almost all power chords.

My projects are going well. I have a lot on my plate but basically I’m still going through them to get stuff done. I’m glad POOR is done. I am really ready to put it out there. I showed a lot of friends the film when I was working on it, but now it’s actually really done. Or will be very soon! I have to make a video exploring my gender clues in my diaries from childhood to now, which is going to need a big deep dive. I’m sure I will discover things about past me that don’t fit the me I am now, because I noticed that last time I made a video like this going through my diaries for mentions of love. But I haven’t sought out gender clues before. It’s for a performance in Helsinki I’m calling Gender Shimmering because I remember a time early in my transition that I went out for drinks with another trans dude early in his transition and I could see his gender shimmer back and forth, sometimes looking slightly feminine and then other times being so clearly a man. So I think that’s sort of a state I lived in for a long time before transitioning.

Anyway I also have this climate doc to finish but I’m giving myself another year of editing for that. And my last ditch attempts at getting it funded. I don’t know what is going on with it, if people don’t have faith in me as an artist, or if people just don’t think trans people and climate change is particularly important or interesting. It’s been frustrating though. I did get some funds but not enough. So yeah I don’t know, it’s very frustrating, I don’t think we are being adequately funded at large and I think the Liberal government we have is basically the Conservatives Lite delivering austerity because rich people love that shit. It’s not austerity for them after all, they aren’t losing money.

I am having fun with music stuff and thinking of dressing more rock star when I do recitals. I have a ton of leather and shit. I even have leather pants! I could be the dreamy rock god ha ha.

I’m still very much a beginner though. But I am using the drum machine on my loop pedal to try to strum in time with. It’s better, I am actually able to do it pretty good. I think learning in a slower speed to begin with is still the best though. But yeah I am able to strum at the right beat! I’m impressed.

I have to remind people I came into this not knowing ANYTHING about music. I pretended to play saxophone in band class in elementary school and then quit because I guess I just didn’t want to be a sax player. But guitar is fun. And yeah I didn’t even really know how to strum at all when I bought my first guitar Stanley. I don’t have a name for my telecaster yet, but that’s only been in my life for a year. But I think I was a bit frustrated with my telecaster until I got a real set up for it with Long & McQuade. It had a buzz but I don’t notice it anymore.

Anyway blah blah blah. The point is I survived the semester, my film is SO CLOSE to being done, I have two more films I gotta finish/get shipshape by May/June. And I also have to do some last edits on my script before it goes back to my producers at the end of April/Early May. So there’s a ton of deadlines but I really did get so much done today and I’m relieved. I am in a much better position for getting ready to put my marks in later this month. I am doing some work tomorrow with filmmakers in a workshop about their project. And then I am getting a massage, and then later is my singing class. I’m thinking of asking to change the time again, I go in at 8:30pm for this class and it’s LATE, but was the only way it would fit my schedule. But my schedule has opened up again.