I guess my last post wasn’t that long ago, but I’m in my office eating strawberries and I am done most of my class prep. I have 20 slides! Which should be enough but you never know.

I’m really struggling with how depraved the ruling class is. I mean we knew they were disgusting people for doing all they have done to this world. But they’re even worse than that. I saw someone make a point that the way they force themselves on other countries and people is parallel to the rapes they have been perpetrating for decades. A rapist ruling class. It really came out in the way they discussed Greenland, listening to American politicians talk about “acquiring” (invading/occupying/colonizing) Greenland was the exact language rapists use. Anyway it’s been a lot seeing stuff come out around it. Also how the current trans panic was designed and perpetrated by enormously wealthy pedophiles. I always thought their obsession with children’s genitals and chests was fucking creepy. Let trans kids do what they need to to feel comfortable, you should not be thinking about a minor’s chest and what they are doing with it that’s just fucking pedo behaviour.

Anyway. I guess it’s also enraging because the American ruling class is still ticking along like nothing is wrong. And the mass media is generally supporting them still and oops Trump pooped himself what a silly guy. Gross.

This world is disappointing. Especially considering I’m not getting programmed as much because I’m trans (or blacklisted or whatever) because they’re afraid of getting pushback from the pedophiles who slandered our community to cover their own pedophilia.

This world needs a reset. What a dumb timeline. And I’m sure there’s people who still support the pedophiles in charge because there are people living in this world with a major moral rot of the soul and they try to act like the rest of us are the problem.

I’m just glad the culture war is still marginally less acceptable in Canada. I mean there are people still trying it (and funded by Americans to do it). But also I think there’s a conservatism that has captured Canadians who don’t want to rock the boat, either in terms of getting their funding cut because of supporting the marginalized, or getting their funding cut for speaking out against a genocide. They’re afraid and it is not helping.

I don’t think I have any other option but to try to be brave. My Great Great Grandfather was a war chief, so it’s in my blood. I’ve been going to protests since I was a little kid. I’ve often made really political art to try and bring issues into focus. It’s not popular though when people just want us to shut up and be unobtrusive while fascism is rising. Although it’s not great financially to be speaking out, and I guess that’s what the quiet people are doing, trying to save their careers.

I decided a long time ago that I would speak out against genocide and other injustices because to do otherwise would be a betrayal of my personal morals and values. As a survivor of an ongoing genocide, I can’t just act like what is happening in Gaza is acceptable or reasonable, it is not it is evil. It’s been evil for a long time. And now international law is in tatters because no one has stopped it, none of the courts stopped it, nothing. Everyone knows it’s everyone for themselves now. Which is not a community minded way to live.

I want to live in a world where crimes against children see consequences, serious consequences. I want to live in a world where we don’t bomb each other to gain resources and land. I want to live in a world where communities work together and support the marginalized among us, so people aren’t starving because people won’t hire or fund them. I’ve lost a lot of weight over the last year because I wasn’t able to pay for groceries most of the time. I’ve had some work but it’s never enough or long enough and it’s just so fucking tiresome. And I want my projects to get funded so I don’t have to stay a semi-retired filmmaker.