It’s reading week so I took some time to work on my dramatic short and my documentary feature. I am trying to get POOR to a picture lock so I can access some finishing funds. I had a fun time learning to make text message overlays, and notifications etc. I have three scenes left to edit and three voice overs left to record. I am still casting for two of them (Indigenous teen girl and an adult of any gender or race who sounds authoritative). But yeah I’m close to being done. SO FUCKING CLOSE. I just have to edit the last bits and then I can make a copy of it to submit to this place. I have I think three weeks until the deadline.

I also needed to edit a fifteen minute teaser of my feature doc, so I tried to edit something together. It’s at about 21 minutes though so it’s six minutes over. There’s this really interesting clip I wanted to include that kind of makes me cry when I listen to it, so I don’t want to cut that. I also was able to get some stock footage to round it out a bit. Pyrocumulus clouds!

I’m hoping to interview someone about hurricane disaster relief for trans people, but she was unavailable this last week so it’s going to be pushed on to the future sometime. But yeah I’m pretty happy with what I have. I know it could get edited down more. And I know I need more interviewees.

But maybe I am also just relieved I was able to get so much work done this week. Soon I have to go back to doing lesson prep, but if I can get these two videos advanced enough I will be able to meet my deadlines.

I also got some notes on my feature script on Monday and made some initial changes to the script and then I am going to go through the rest of the notes and address them. The notes were really good! He found some logical inconsistencies and got me to think about how the fire powers work. So it’s been helpful. There was a lot more to it than that. But yeah I appreciate people helping my artistic visions come to life.

I also got another financial supporter for Unsettled Climate so that’s really nice. If you are interested in this documentary and want to donate towards making it please let me know! tjcuthand@gmail.com I am waiting for you, generous patron of the arts.

In my personal life, aw geez really I just do a lot of work and stay home. I was going to go to the trans night at Steamworks tonight, but it’s freezing rain outside and was winter storming all day so I don’t want to go out there. I had a couple of hookups on the weekend. But nothing this week, I’ve just wanted to stay in and nerd out editing. I got my Apretude shot yesterday too, it didn’t make me violently ill like it did the first time, I didn’t even really feel sick at all today. I do have a sore hip muscle though. Whatever this muscle is called, it’s not a glute it’s a thing beside the glute. Anyway I’m glad it’s only a sore muscle because I was thinking if I had a bad reaction to it again I would go back on Truvada. But this is like, a fraction of a percent better at keeping me HIV negative so I’m going to suck it up. Plus Indian Affairs pays this outrageous 1800+ cost every two months, so I’m going to take advantage of being covered for it.

So aside from letting work interrupt my slut activities, I’ve been good. I think I am finding my life purpose again. Teaching has been good for my soul (although I feel like the week before reading week was my worst teaching week ha ha). But! Also doing the film work I CAN do has been helping me. I know I semi-retired as a full time filmmaker (which is true because I’ve been teaching too) but I do like it and I am good at it even if I don’t get funded all the time. And the projects do have to get finished. Right now I am just concentrating on cleaning my plate, like Unsettled Climate and POOR and Evil Fire. And then I guess I will let what happens to my career happen. I do have another script I have to finish too. So it’s not all over. I feel like Unsettled Climate might get finished sooner depending on some funding I applied for and am dubious about. But you never know right?

I am still dismayed by seeing how ugly the ruling class is. We knew this! We knew these people were taking humanity and the future of the planet in the wrong direction. But now we’re seeing the evidence of what and why they were doing this and it’s crazy!

I guess knowing it’s all a rigged game is making a lot of things make more sense. It’s insane that these are the people keeping us from ending climate change! This pedophile Epstein class. It makes me so angry, they’re so evil. And there’s more of us than there are of them. I think the system needs to collapse, we can’t carry this kind of blood drinking evil.

I saw this video of Roseanne Barr saying they were full on vampires, and yeah they are holy shit! And then I wondered about my own lifelong interest in vampires. And I was interested in romantic literature vampires, not wealthy capitalist vampires who eat babies too. Like it does not sound alluring at all, it just sounds fucked up. We’re taking orders from cannibalistic vampires. When will we revolt?

Bailey Sarian made a video recently where she was like “What are we going to do?” I think that’s honestly the question most of us are having to all these revelations. What are we going to do? Because this shit is not working for anyone but a handful of evil humans.