I’ve got some work this week and next week, which is REALLY good because I need the money quite desperately. I also have an interview tomorrow for cfcr, the local coop radio station. I’m pretty psyched. I really hope I get it because it sounds like an interesting job.

Anyway, I’m tired of being poor already. Mostly I just want something with set hours and a future, temping is a bit dodgy just because you don’t know when the next job is coming. Plus I have to get up early for work tomorrow, ai! I hope I can do it. Also I need to get my paystubs in to the coop here so I can get on reduced rent.

I’m doing well aside from that, had a very quiet week after I got home from the festival. I mostly just adjusted to being back home, hung out with my cousin and did some goofy stuff. Now I have to clean my apartment. I guess because it is horribly messy. No way could I seduce a woman in this trash heap~!

My libido has ebbed away into a mere whisp of itself. I don’t know if this is the medications, but I can be around perfectly cute single girls and not feel a smidgen of lust. It’s terrible! I think I should talk to my doctor about it. I need viagra to get it up at all! LOL. I’ve never taken viagra. I hear you see blue dots on it.

Penis meds. Ha ha ha! I’m glad I don’t have one of those, they look way too sensitive to tote around. Breasts are sometimes sensitive, but they get jostled around all the time. Dildos are fine though, that’s all you really need unless you’re Making Babies. A queer friend at the imagineNATIVE festival voiced an often felt weirdness about the idea of sex being reproductional, and I have to say it does make me laugh. Making babies.

At this point in my life I have decided not to have babies myself. I think I’m too selfish to care for a child. Is that a bad thing to say? Certainly in the future a foster kid wouldn’t be out of the question, but I would have to be in a different place in my life to do it. For me, 30 is still too young to have a child. For ME. I don’t know about the rest of the world.

I think I like the idea of a child much better. Someone to look after, someone to look after me when I’m old, but see then it starts going back to selfish reasons for a child. And just because you have a kid doesn’t mean they’re going to want to bathe you when you’re old.