I’m making a few newish but older videos public, so you can go check my video page if you want to see the others. But anyway I thought I should try and hype this video up a bit because it is really popular on the festival/class talk circuit and I am pretty proud of it. Spoiler: the eggs never became embryos, which I talk about in another video called 13 Eggs (which is on private but if you want a password to see it please ask). But this is still an important video even though time has passed.

Anyway today I finally started putting captions on my videos. I hadn’t done it for so long! And I had a bunch of srt files just hanging around waiting, YEARNING, to be put on my videos so more people can access them. Unfortunately they aren’t ALL there, and some of them are really random. Like captions in German or Spanish and not English captions. Things like that. I am getting grant money soon tho and I’m going to try and make more English captions with REV because it’s built into Vimeo now if I want. The translations really depend on where my videos get screened and if the org makes subs for them. Often they do, and I do play in a lot of different countries, so it’s gonna be an ongoing project to include them now that I know how fucking easy it is to add captions to Vimeo. Also a lot of newer work was translated into Spanish when I was in Buenos Aires, so I’m hoping to get those srt files.

I also started a Ko-fi, which is definitely helpful because I think people are amenable to tossing a few dollars my way if they see one of my videos and like it, but less into signing up for a monthly Patreon subscription. I think five dollars is cheap though, I wish people could pay more. I know there’s the option though if they really want to send more money. And putting in five dollars makes people not feel so cheap I guess because it’s framed as a tip. I don’t know I guess I’ll see how it goes! So far no donations, but I’ve been seeing people follow me on Vimeo more recently so I tried to put the Ko-fi link on most of my videos.

I also figured out how to finally change my name in all the places on Vimeo so it’s a little less sketchy when I go there. Because dragging around the history of my deadname feels like being weighed down. So that’s good. I don’t really care if I see it lots of places, but the places I have control over I would like to be accurate.

I was gonna go to the gym today, but I don’t have money for my YMCA membership because I’m waiting for grant money to get deposited and also trying to keep my rent money in there so the rent cheque doesn’t bounce a SECOND time this month. It already bounced because I was 71 dollars short. And then I borrowed money from my mom and Visa took all of it by force with the banks permission, so I had to borrow AGAIN. Omg. It’s hell. I know money is coming but this just sucks. FREAKING HELL.

I also decided against continuing to write a grant for Ontario Creates. It was just a lot more work than I was prepared for, and also I want to apply for Canada Council money for that project later and I don’t know if that is still eligible or if it turns into a Corporate project. And I much prefer making video games that are art projects more than corporate projects. So yeah, that took a bunch of work off my schedule and frees me up to do my actual creative work and a short term gig I have.

Carmilla the Lonely is much closer to being able to release. I just need to finish the credits and then figure out how to notarize it with Apple so it will open on Macs instead of triggering the automatic Apple Malware alert. So yeah, a lot of work but honestly much less than before. I resolved most of the issues that came up in testing so I think it plays better. Also it’s harder to get blood because you need consent which was important to the idea of the video game.

Also Christmas is coming! I am spending it alone. Well, not totally alone, my faithful little hound will be with me. I’m looking forward to cheese plates and chocolates.

Anyway here is my Ko-fi!
https://ko-fi.com/theocuthand