Anyway it’s 2025! I’m writing here a lot right now while I have some time.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my diet. Ugh. I never wanted to be one of those margarine people. But I am thinking a lot about my health and having a fatty liver and being pre-diabetic. And all the times I’ve been to the dietician they give me depressing advice. But I’m 46 and I know my Grandparents on both sides MOSTLY (except one) lived to be very old. My maternal Grandparents died in their 90’s. But they were also REALLY healthy. Like, when doctors gave them advice they listened.
And I’m doing good with exercise (or I was when I have time and am not healing from a revision). I know how to work out and stuff. But my diet needs an overhaul.
The thing is I’m secretly a picky person. I have textures I hate. And I appreciate sugary fatty things. Like pastries especially. It sucks that I might have to give that up, or cut back.
I guess I’m glad it’s not gout. But fatty livers and diabetes aren’t great. I did switch to Coke Zero. And I’m doing milk in my coffee and not coffeemate. I used to eat gummy candies (but a lot) and now I have gummy edibles (but not a lot because they are edibles) and don’t eat the regular gummy candies. I still have a chocolate addiction. I got sugar free Hot Apple Drink. Cutting fat is hard though, I fucking LOOOOOOVE Butter. I watch that Butter Crisis video and get their profound loss of that one year Norway had a butter shortage ha ha.
UGH I am not GOING on a diet though because that implies I want to shrink and get smaller. I just don’t want a fatty liver! I don’t want to be human foie gras!
Anyway.
The potentially cancer thing on my face turned out to be something wrong with an oil gland, so it really was not an issue. So essentially my only problems with my body are my blood sugar and this liver issue. Which are totally treatable, I’m going to be ok.
UGH I should probably switch my oatmeal. I have oatmeal with sugar in it and it’s prepackaged, like little packets. And it’s convenient to make. But maybe I could switch to Cream of Wheat.
My resolution this year was supposed to just be to write a lot more (and I am succeeding) but I think I need to also change my diet. I don’t want to go see the dietician again though because I know what she will say. I just want to slowly phase in a healthier diet. I would probably heal faster from bottom surgery and my eventual hysterectomy if I got my blood sugar back under control. I’m not at the point of having to test my sugar all the time. But it’s coming!